So today, I’ve decided to focus on the positive, the good and the future. Fibromyalgia has actually taught me so much about myself. I am who I am because of it. Having a chronic disease definitely, test your strengths, pushes you beyond your limits, and even make you feel defeated sometimes. But, in those moments when you find an ounce of strength to smile, to mask the pain and even just say I’m ok, is when you have won. I used to stretch myself completely thin, always on the go but now my body taps out on me at any given time. Through this, I have learned to be ok with not being ok. I’ve excepted that I will have days where I feel as though I got hit by a semi-truck, I’ve learned to enjoy the time that I do feel well and not overdo it, listening to my body is key. I may have limitations on what I’m allowed to do but sometimes having fun and enjoying life is worth what it’ll cost me; probably a hospital visit or a few days in bed.
The woman that I am today is strong, mentally. It takes a lot of mind control to not let your illness break you. I won’t lie it does knock me down but I never stay down.
Let’s talk Strut, the organization that I am Vice President of every event that we have I am always sick literally. There are events that we’ve had where I was in the hospital the previous day and should have stayed home, can barely get out of bed that morning, sometimes my bones hurt to the point I don’t want to walk, but it’s always bigger than me. On those days I have to fight harder to mask the pain. It’s not always easy but I never want people to see me fall apart.
This is where my strength kicks in full force. So today I just wanted to encourage someone to keep pushing, keep striving and keep moving. A baby step is still a step, so don’t focus on the pace just make sure you stay in the race!!!!!